August 16, 2003

 
since my guitar is a girl....

OpHeEeNieEe: yes i have a guy
bOiNg.chu.M[o]NsteR 1:24:00 AM

August 15, 2003

 
doo doo go down the hoooole...

and he just flushed the toilet like 10 times....

david: awww i got owned....
bOiNg.chu.M[o]NsteR 11:07:00 PM

 
roomates....

david: awww crap...i gotta go crazy diarrhea again....
bOiNg.chu.M[o]NsteR 10:57:00 PM

 
hmm...its a good feeling....and so the journey begins.....

well david ben phil and i were watching davids favorite movie, "ladies man" and i must say...that movie is kind of stupid. but its a funny stupid...anyways every year i come back from camp telling myself im a changed man, but within a week or so...im back to the same way i was before....except for last year....last year i changed a lot...i realized things about myself that i never knew before and i ahd developed a closer relationship with God through my own worship experience....this year was way different. i had gone thru the worries of who was on worship team and blahblah cuz i really wanted to be on the worship team, but because i had to come here to UT, there was no way i could do it... now i realize that it was out of my own selfish ambition that i wanted to lead worship...it was for the feeling...it was for the joy of being able to lead others into the presence of God...but thank God He did not allow me to lead all the sessions of worship during camp this year. i found true joy in worshipping in the audience as well as on stage.

my spiritual act of worship isnt just to stand on stage and sing, but to live as an example...even though now im considered the youngest age group here at UT, i know i can make an impact. i realize that now, ive got to start from the bottom once again, just like my freshman year in highschool....back then i had no idea i would be on the worship team. i was definitely shy and afraid of all the upperclassmen. plus, many of them are just better than me at guitar....but this time it will be different, i pray that God will use me in a mighty way to impact His people for His glory.

anyways now im just rambling on about stuff....

as i may have told many of you, i havent been sleeping well since coming here...and after talking to steven tso about it...he says, "OH i know whats wrong." and so im curious as to what he thinks i have...and he says two simple words to me, "youre homesick." so im like uhh....and i think about it for a while and its like yea....i realize i miss all the stuff back at home...friends, family, my car, my moms cooking....you know that stuff...but talk about a bad case...i didnt even realize it for myself...i believe ive dealt with it now, i know ill get to love it here in austin, but home is home and nobody can ever take that away, plus my mom is the most awesomest cook ever. so why am i still awake at 4 in the morning? no idea....
bOiNg.chu.M[o]NsteR 3:55:00 AM

August 14, 2003

 
here it comes again...and its already started....

oh man...i spent all day just bumming around...playing cs, nba street, eating, hanging out just doing nothing....talk about a wasted day, my mom would chew me up and spit me out so fast....my mom always believes in having a productive day, everyday and i can definitely understand where shes coming from...im such a bum...which is probably why i have so much time to think about stuff...anyways this is finals week....and basically i feel screwed, but im not stressing about it. i should be, i should freaking out, pissing in my pants, whatever whatever. summer is school is just about to end for me, and the highschoolers back at home have already started school....man, which means in two weeks, im RIGHT BACK HERE AGAIN. but this time, for much longer...and in a crappier dorm...whats going to happen to my amy? *sigh* i may have to leave her back at home...im kinda scared of the ppl in jester....but i know noone is gonna play my guitar if i leave her at home...guess ill just talk things thru with my dad when i get home...btw ill be home next monday or tuesday...IM me one of those to find out if im home...or...if im not online, im probably back in SL. im just gonna study now...well ill try to at least, anyways this one phrase keeps popping up in my head when i start worrying

"Suck it up." - ryan kwon
bOiNg.chu.M[o]NsteR 10:33:00 PM

 
man...why is xanga always pwned?
bOiNg.chu.M[o]NsteR 10:24:00 PM

August 12, 2003

 
i was just wondering about a t-shirt size....

OpHeEeNieEe: maan.. i hadda have done one of the stupidest things i've ever done when i called u back today...
bOiNgcHubOiNg: hm?
bOiNgcHubOiNg: i thought it was my cell at first
OpHeEeNieEe: cuz like rite when u called my phoned died
bOiNgcHubOiNg: i was like dangit...how come she keeps disconnecting?!
OpHeEeNieEe: so i used viv's to call u back
OpHeEeNieEe: :-P
bOiNgcHubOiNg: lol good deal
bOiNgcHubOiNg: does vivian have my number?
OpHeEeNieEe: no
OpHeEeNieEe: i dialed it from my phone
OpHeEeNieEe: but anywayz
OpHeEeNieEe: the crazy part
OpHeEeNieEe: so i call u back and this guy with a packistanian accent picks up
OpHeEeNieEe: and i'm like "jeremy?"
OpHeEeNieEe: and the guy was like.."noooo.. u have the wrong numba"
bOiNgcHubOiNg: lol
OpHeEeNieEe: and i was like "stop it jeremy dont use that voice on me.. u cant trick me"
OpHeEeNieEe: and the guy was like..."noooo.... who is this?"
bOiNgcHubOiNg: hahahah
OpHeEeNieEe: and then i wa slike.."jeremy.. dont be gay"
OpHeEeNieEe: and the dude was like "this is blah blah blah window washing company"
bOiNgcHubOiNg: whoa!
OpHeEeNieEe: and i was like.."yeah... veyr funny"
bOiNgcHubOiNg: hahahahhaa
OpHeEeNieEe: and then.
OpHeEeNieEe: i looked on the phone to check wut number i called
OpHeEeNieEe: and i saw ...that it was the worng number... and i htought "CRAP"
OpHeEeNieEe: and hung up
bOiNgcHubOiNg: lol!!!
bOiNg.chu.M[o]NsteR 11:59:00 PM

 
eat this and hope it wont kick in your mouth....oh suck it up...

i cant believe im taking finals....this is so STUPID. its the END of summer and beginning of a new semester of school...and i STILL havent gotten a vacation!!! oh boohoo. cant wait to see everyone here at UT! =)

except for my jie cynthia.... =( shes gonna be in houston....and im gonna be in austin...we traded places...not fair! ILL COME BACK AND VISIT!!! i hope... =)
bOiNg.chu.M[o]NsteR 11:20:00 PM

 
i had felt...fulfilled...

i slept 14 hours when i got back. from 6pm-8am. thats the most ive slept all summer...amazing! and FINALLY i felt RENEWED when i awoke from my deep slumber. it was AMAZING, i hadnt felt so refreshed in a long time. anyways time to sleep. class at 8, but no whining here sinceyou highschoolers start this THURSDAY!!

btw....mAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD props go out to ophie, she bought me a ninja turtles shirt. when i opened my birthday present i was stunned! i wear it when i go to sleep now cuz im afraid to get it dirty (and its a little small on me, but i can still fit) and its an awesome motivator for me to continue on my journey to reach the status of ninjaturtlearms. awesome awesome awesome! ok....now for more sleep
bOiNg.chu.M[o]NsteR 1:23:00 AM

August 11, 2003

 
Camp C part I.......

well, this years camp is a camp i definitely will not ever forget. many people say that, but ive never actually said that...at least i dont think so...but anyways this camp exceeded my expectations so much. at first i went in with a heart that just wanted to get a renewing of His Spirit in my life, instead, i got so much more. after hearing from pastor ryan kwan, hes taught me so much, like seeing what Christ did for us in a new perspective, learning about faith, prayer, friendships, reconciliation, procrastination in my spiritual life, girls, and an extreme life. he shed a new light on all of these topics, these topics that i have already heard about since i was young. but my eyes have been opened and now i can see clearly. God has SO much planned for my life, and all i have to do is live my life for Him everyday, live to the Xtreme!

man, i got to talk about worship, cuz this year i wasnt part of the worship team. at first i had my doubts about worship cuz, to be honest i didnt know that jeff and stephen had matured so much. man, jeff and stephen did an awesome job of just leading us into the presence of God. and of course, John did an awesome job, i really admire him because of the many different ways he can make a song sound, by doing that, he totally changes the mood of the atmosphere and its really cool. he can think of so many ideas for worship, its really amazing. anyways before camp john calls me and asks if i want to help lead worship or anything so im like YEA. i asked john whether or not i needed a band, and he told me that the band members would be busy but i could try if i wanted to...so i decided not to burden everyone else with having to practice with me and what not...so i went solo...or a duet if you will, with my guitar amy. i was actually nervous before going up because well...i hadnt lead worship in a while...and i didnt have a band to back me up when i mess up...and i mess up alot actually....and anyways i ended up messing up in a couple spots...but it was alright because edwin was there to do the egg shaker thing so it wasnt as noticable. i realized one thing when i was up there, leading worship is an awesome, awesome experience, but if you dont come with the right attitude before leading, youre wasting time because youre worrying about too much other stuff.

ummm theres A LOT more...but i think ill put it on another post, plus i have to get ready for class...its finals week
bOiNg.chu.M[o]NsteR 9:07:00 AM

 
this is the Holy Moment.....

As we come today, we remind ourselves of what we do,
That these songs are not just songs, but signs of love for You.
This is a holy moment now,
something of heaven touches earth.
voices of angels all resound, we join their song.

Come, come, come, let us worship God
with our hands held high and our hearts bowed down.
We will run, run, run through Your gates, Oh God,
with a shout of love, with a shout of love.

Lord, with confidence, we come before Your throne of grace,
Not that we deserve to come, but You have paid the way.
You are the holy King of all,
Heaven and earth are in Your hands
All of the angels sing Your song; we join them now…

bOiNg.chu.M[o]NsteR 8:35:00 AM

August 10, 2003

 
back from camp, more later
bOiNg.chu.M[o]NsteR 6:02:00 PM